Beauty Will Rise

In the beginning, it was definitely "easier". I use this word easy, loosely. As time goes on it does get harder, unfortunately. I remember the weekend that I went from I can do this to I can't. From with God and my Faith, I can do this because I know I will see him again, to a complete mess with no hope to even be happy again. That weekend was awful, not my lowest but it sticks out. On Monday morning, I woke up to a CD on top of my laptop, courtesy of my wonderful Husband. It was Steven Curtis Chapman's CD, "Beauty Will Rise". This CD has done amazing things for me. Steven Curtis Chapman lost his daughter not too long ago and wrote this CD with his experience in dealing with the loss of his own daughter and his Faith. I sat there that morning and listened to every song and still to this day I haven't stopped playing it. I remember listening to it the first time in shock because I was surprised that this man was singing words right out of my head. Of course I'm not musically inclined and could never express myself that well! I am so Thankful for the words he has written. The song, "Beauty Will Rise, gives kenji and I both so much hope that we even put a verse on Ayden's monument. When I read these words I can actually truly, genuinely smile because of the truth behind them. The song talks about that even out of a horrible time, that we have a promise and the hope that through Jesus we will have eternal life and of course "beauty will rise"

It was the day the world went wrong
I screamed til my voice was gone
And watched through the tears as everything
came crashing down
Slowly panic turns to pain
As we awake to what remains
and sift through the ashes that are left
behind

But buried deep beneath
All our broken dreams
we have this hope:

Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
and we will dance among the ruins
We will see Him with our own eyes
Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
For we know, joy is coming in the morning...
in the morning, beauty will rise

So take another breath for now,
and let the tears come washing down,
and if you can't believe I will believe
for you.

Cuz I have seen
the signs of spring!
Just watch and see:

Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
and we will dance among the ruins
We will see Him with our own eyes
Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
For we know, joy is coming in the morning...
in the morning...

I can hear it in the distance
and it's not too far away.
It's the music and the laughter
of a wedding and a feast.
I can almost feel the hand of God
reaching for my face
to wipe the tears away, and say,
"It's time to make everything new."

"Make it all new"

This is our hope.
This is the promise.
This is our hope.
This is the promise.
That it would take our breath away
to see the beauty that's been made
out of the ashes...
out of the ashes...
That it would take our breath away
to see the beauty that He's made
out of the ashes...
out of the ashes...

Out of these ashes... beauty will rise
and we will dance among the ruins
We will see Him with our own eyes
Out of this darkness... new life will shine
and we'll know the joy is coming in the morning...
in the morning...beauty will rise!

Oh, Beauty will rise
Oh, Beauty will rise
Oh, oh, oh, Beauty will rise
Oh, oh, oh, Beauty will rise
Oh, oh, oh, Beauty will rise

And much to my excitement. Steven Curtis Chapman is creating new merchandise, as most bands do. He previewed one of the tshirts and it has these words on them. Makes me happy!
http://chapmanchannel.typepad.com/jim/2010/03/sneak-peak.html